Zephyre, the guy who made this montage, says that this movie was mostly a box office flop. He made this montage because, he thought the car scenes in this movie were cool. I have to agree here, I think the car scenes here are surprisingly good. Well, at least, it's miles better off than the crappy car scenes in the Fast&Furious movies.

Here's something else, which is bound to guarantee to you that hugging your pillow while watching a movie actually helps the overall watching experience:

life's been pretty much revolving around school, for the most part (hey, we are students). I wouldn't say school is entirely boring, but it's a mixed bag of beans. There are times, when waking out of bad feels so useless, because going to school feels useless. Not every time, but I do get that every now and then. Siti has told me, on several instances, of how she wanted to just skip school. I bet there's more from where that came from, because i'm sure we're not the only ones who feel this way. and no, Siti, things like these don't go unnoticed. Things like these don't go unnoticed, because people care about you.

Outside of school, things aren't half as dark. I may have landed myself a job at a Starbucks, so *crossses fingers* i'm hoping I can get in. I'll be turning 17 this year, and given the ridiculous amount of free time I have on my hands, I think it's time I actually did something for myself. I don't think it's....wise to just laze around at home (no, especially not here at the farm), and sit in front of the PC like a fat slob all day long. Thing is, ever since I got my O level results, and after coming to acceptance that I would end up in ITE, I knew I would have alot of free time, and i've been eyeing on jobs ever since. Now that I might have landed myself on one, it's all coming back. This might just be a sign of good things to come, a sign of my life finally getting back on the right track. It's complicated, but it sure does feel that way.

Ramesh, it's good to be back. I'm done with being sad. I may be emo, but Ramesh isn't a sad guy. You're free to argue, but you'd be wrong.

POA's Trading, Profit, and Loss accounts have been driving me up the wall recently. Whenever I get POA assignments dealing with these TPL accounts, I simply just switch off. Inside, I become a semi-mad man. I don't know why it feels like this, but it's been draining alot of my energy out of me. It gets better after i'm done with everything POA, but it takes time. Giant was right, Work isn't as daunting as soon as you start doing it.

I don't like how I get my POA's TPL accounts wrong most of the time. It drives me nuts. Maybe it's because I don't want to fail academically anymore, like how I just threw my O levels away. Strange thing is, i've never had such a strong drive to actually get something right.

Never, ever, ever.

Self-motivation in action? I don't know, maybe I should talk to Chelsea about this, she'll know something for sure.

This drive I get, when I go mad over the TPL accounts, has driven me to do things which I don't mean. I tend to reply a little rudely, when someone throws me a question regarding TPL accounts, especially when i'm confused with my own TPL account question which I have at hand. With a violent tone in my reply, I replied to Siti that Rent Received was revenue, because it was recorded in the credit column in the Trial Balance, and should be added into the gross profit value. I would find out later that Siti mistook my heavy concentration on the TPL accounts and violent replies as Arrogance. I didn't say much back to her, mainly because I don't blame her, and what she said was fair. The drive I had to finish my TPL account correctly had driven me to do other things which people didn't like.

Maybe everything does actually happen for a reason. My past mistakes have served me well.

It isn't just me who hasn't been in the best mood this week. Siti seemed to be disturbed by something this entire week, she's done a few odd (but forgivable) things and nearly broke down on the train today. I may have been listening to Be Mine by Robyn on my MP3 player while witnessing this, but inside of me, it was all solemn. I know how it's like, to just break down there and there. It just isn't normal for someone to do that. Sigh, just like all happy people who smile on the outside all the time, these people might be just covering up some heavy burdens in their hearts. Like how I am sometimes. Things only began to change after 4 counselors for me.

Ancherle has been having more than just a few issues with her friend. We witnessed how things got pretty serious earlier on today, but to Ancherle, this is just another day, another problem. She said that "i've been giving in for three years already." I thought, if Ancherle has been giving in for 3 years, then why stop now (or even mention it, since it's 3 years old anyway)? Sigh, girls sometimes.

I wish I could really do something to help you guys, instead of typing all of these out. I know it isn't completely right, but I also know you guys are probably reading this. If you're reading this, I've got a bit i'd like to say. I really would like to say that staying happy is a difficult thing to do in today's world, and especially in a country like Singapore, where everything points to stress. Staying happy has become so difficult these days, i'll say that staying happy is actually important. Chelsea's told me this before, and i'll say this again: Life's too short to be anything but happy. There is little point in worrying, and you won't realize that, until you're happy. It's a viscous cycle.

Stuff like these made this week a little less brighter that what it was supposed to be. They both strongly feel that our class sucks, and it doesn't help.

I did come to a point, where I did think our class sucks to the core, but then COB's rehearsal came, and changed my mindset. I'm working with Averic for my role-play, a guy who mostly plays his life with his own set of rules, as even he would admit. All it took was a simple, open and authentic conversation with Averic, and I would get exchange a few words with people I haven't talked to in months, like Charmaine, Jojo, Faz, and even Razmeer. It reminded me of being in Secondary School again, where I wouldn't be in a clique, I would just be jumping around all over the place, having conversations with the most random of people, followed by even more random people. Looking at the class from this angle, the cliques in our class aren't as hostile as they appeared to be once. Only cliques appear hostile to other cliques in the class. Curious.