archiving life.

I wish I was rich biaaach
Sunday, June 21, 2009

no matter how emotionally postitive I feel about the things around me, there's always this thought at the back of my head, the thought of how I fail miserably at life. I fail at life. But ah, Chelsea's there again, and this time, her PM read:

"Life's to short to be anything but happy."

...I totally agree.

went over to Jing Wen's place yesterday. Finally got a taste of Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell: Double Agent! A game developed by Ubisoft, it's been around a while, but somehow, I never noticed it. lol. Anyway, it was fun, and really puts us in the shoes of a secret agent. The game requires you to think a tad alot, and stealth is top priority. Else, you'll lose trust, alarms will be triggered, and you get killed or the mission gets called off. Either way, your game will be over. It's cool stuff.

here's what got me interested into the Splinter Cell games:

Splinter Cell 2: conviction!

oh god, it looks so awesome.

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We also tried the F.E.A.R 2 demo.

F.E.A.R2 is downright, THE most scariest game i've ever played. Seriously, I was watching, not playing the game. I'm such a scaredy cat, because I got scared watching him play. I wasn't even playing. I really fail at life.

the scariest game today (warning, don't watch this at night with the volume turned up in fullscreen HD):

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While i'm throwing in gametrailers into this post, i'll just finish the job.

this one's by ubisoft too, and it looks pretty awesome.

Olden Venice really looks simply stunning here. Kudos to them. Assasisn's Creed 2, folks.

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Windows Live Calander is pretty awesome. It's part of Windows Live Mail, which i've been using for a very long time already, but I never touched it's calander features till now. Weird, but true.

i've never taken any of my organization digitally. Everything has been on paper, black and white, on my Diary (yes, I still keep a diary lol). Windows live has enabled to take organization into the online world via cloud computing, and yay windows live!

meanwhile, check out the poll channelnewsasia.com put up. Jing Wen showed this to me, i LOL'd.

hahaha. This is really what's so cool about the internet.

had a ball of a time playing Burnout Paradise on Jing Wen's notebook, performing all those cool stunts with the car. Perfect Barrel rolls at top speeds are really satisfying, and a 180 degrees flat spin is simply stylo-milo. Too bad a major flaw of this game, is that the stunts are a little harder than what they're supposed to be. Winning Stunt runs somtimes can become quite a chore.

Note to self: Aggression vehicles + stunts = awesome driveaways, lol.

Jing Wen downloaded the entire Splinter Cell: Double Agent game. I'm so going to try it. The demo we tried was really promising. Bad news, is that F.E.A.R 2 is 11gigs (WHAT THE FUCK!?). Seriously, who on earth downloads 11gigs off the internet? That's alot of data!

i've set aside tomorrow to do my BSE homework. Retarded assignment, (shh, you didn't hear that one from me) but as restarded as it is, i've got to do it. All the more, it's retarded in a easy kind of way. EZPZ.

Looking from the Calender, it looks like ETP club's barbeque at ECP isn't very far away, although it's on only Thursday (gah, screw you, calander). Neither is the CIP, although I can't remember what we're doing for CIP. Darn my memory, it's so poor, and doesn't exactly serve me well. Perhaps the calender will improve things =D

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99 questions:

1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?

NO idea.

2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?

sleepy.

3) Who was the last person you talked with ?

Jing Wen/ Ling Jie/ Chu Ming via Messenger conversations.

4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ?

Yes. I never get anything I want, but I know people who've lost alot more than me, and even then, I still complain like a fag. Thus, i'm spoilt.

5) Would you donate blood ?

Uh, no. Unless it's someone I know who's in dire need. Donating blood scares me. It's just scary looking life in the eye, if you know what I mean.

6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?

I don't exactly have a best friend in the first place. Never had, and I believe I never will. As a matter of fact, I don't think I have a friend who's close to me even.

7) Do you want someone dead ?

Nope. If there's someone who should die, it should perhaps be me. Really.

8) What does the last message says ?

I don't have a handphone, so no text messages for me.

9) What are you thinking right now ?

Thinking of how to not kill myself of boredom this holiday.

10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?

Someone? or someone in particular? if it's someone in particular, no. If it's someone, hell yeah! i'd love someone to be here with me, anyone. Then we can have our own chit-chat session, and laugh out hearts out. Misery always loves company.

11) What time you went to bed last night ?

Can't remember. I'm not a very on-the-ball person.

13) Is someone in your mind ?

Actually, no. I fail at life.

14) Who was the last person you texted ?

I DO NOT HAVE A HANDPHONE

15) 10 people tagged to do quiz .

tag 10 people to this quiz? nothx

16) Who is 2 having relationship with ?

N/A

17) Is 3 male or female ?

N/A

18) If 7 & 6 get together , would it be a good thing ?

N/A LOL

19) What is 1 study about ?

N/A

20) When was the last time you chat with 5 ?

N/A

21) Is 4 single ?

N/A

22) Say something about 2 ?

N/A

23) What do you think of 3 & 6 being together ?

N/A

24) What do you think if 6 & 7 fight ?

N/a

25) Do you like 3 ?

N/A

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage:

Lipton tea.

2. Last phone call:

A call from my school's Entreprenuer's club.

3. Last text message:

NO HANDPHONE

4. Last song you listened to:

Do It For You - Ballas Hough Band. Chu Ming sent me this song today, along with couple of others. They're awesome!

5. Last time you cried:

a few days back. I was alone in the bus, listening to an old song, which brought back memories.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice:

uh, i've never really been on an actual date before. I fail at life, remember?

7. Been cheated on:

Perhaps, but I'd rather not think about it at all. I'd feel hurt, and cry.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it:

Never kissed anyone before. Kissing my mum goodbye has been so long, too.

9. Lost someone special:

A girl I liked.

10. Been depressed:

Yeah, after (9) happened, and after I got my 'O' level results.

11. Been drunk and threw up:

never been drunk, never really drinked before. But I figure I might, sooner or later. Drinking isn't a big deal anyways.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

Black, Grey, White. You won't believe how powerful these colours are.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend:

New school, new friends. Of course, loads of them. It's uncountable.

16. Laughed until you cried:

Yeah, after ETP club's last competition, we laughed all the way back while on the bus. My stomach hurt so bad.

17. Met someone who changed you:

Not exactly. Maybe just one, back in secondary school. There are people in my current school who are different, and do make me see things differently, but it doesn't go any further than that I guess.

18. Found out who your true friends were:

uh, never really had close friends. I love alot of people, but I don't love 1 person. I guess I will find true friends, in the months to come. The people in school still can be a little foreign sometimes. Till then, i'll wait and see =).

19. Found out someone was talking about you:

Talking about me? as in, bad things? bitching behind backs?

bitching about me, exactly 2 people. One, from my class (apparently he talks about everyone else also), and another one, from secondary school. Other than these 2, I can't think of who possibly would do something so evil.

talking about me, in terms of casual talk, i'm sure there are at least SOME people who talk about me. Naturally, that's for sure.

20. How many kids do you want to have:

I don't think i'll ever get married, but if I do, then i'll probably just have 1 kid. Girl or Guy, doesn't matter. I wouldn't mind.

21. Do you have any pets:

Well, if you consider my so-called "watchdogs" here at where I live as pets, then yeah. 2 rather huge dogs. It's just that, one of these "watchdogs" we have is kinda cowardly, despite being the bigger dog.

22. Do you want to change your name:

Never really thought about my name at all. I mean, your name is something that belongs to you, and can't be taken away. It's out of your hands. Besides, Thanikodi Ramesh is fine (some people like my Thanikodi surname more than my name, for some reason). I've heard worser names, such as Fa-Khe, and even Parsley (!).

23. What did you do for your last birthday?

nothing. I've never recieved a birthday present before either. If I get one this year or so, I think that i'll be so touched that i'll cry. I've never had a birthday party before, and gone are the young days where parents would be so exited that their son is ageing a year older, and buy huge toys and cakes. Birthdays have been kinda meaningless to me, if you ask me. No matter how many people celebrate it.

24. What time did you wake up today?

8.30AM or so. I don't know why I woke up so early today.

25. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Bloggin', yo.

26. Name something you CANNOT wait for:

to graduate safely.

27. Last time you saw your Mother:

family's asleep as of now, i'm just staying up late doing 'dis shit. My mum, huh. Some 2 hours ago.

28. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life

I wish I could move back into my apartment flat I used to live in. Also, I wish I had a better computer. Oh wait, I wish I had a better score for my 'O' levels, so that I didn't land myself into such a terrible state, and fail at life.

29. What are you listening to right now:

What A Feeling - Irene Cara. Awesome oldies disco track Ancherle sent me a few days back.

30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:

Tom...hmm...Nope. MOVING ON

31. What's getting on your nerves right now:

nothing. This quiz is long, but I like it.

32. Most visited webpage:

www.winmatrix.com forums.

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33. Whats your real name:

Thanikodi Ramesh.

34. Nicknames:

Baby Mesh, Thankodi, Beanie, "Thambi" Mesh, Mash Potatoes, just to name a few. The list actually goes on.

35. Relationship Status:

Single. Have always been.

36. Zodiac sign?:

Libra

37. Male or female?:

Male

38. Elementary?:

Xingnan primary school.

39. Middle School?:

Chua Chu Kang Secondary

40. High school/college?:

ITE CW-CT

41. Hair colour:

i've always been natural black. I've thought about dying, but...

I also happen to have alot of white hair.

42. Long or short:

Somewhere in between. Seriously.

43. What do you like about yourself?:

I'm an average joe.

44. Piercings:

NO. DO NOT WANT

45. Tattoos:

NOH

46. Righty or lefty:

Rigggght. Right!

FIRSTS :

47. First surgery:

NOH

48. First piercing:

NOH

49. First best friend(s):

Didn't have one. A Lifelong friend would surely be Jing Wen, though!

50. First sport you joined:

I never joined a sport before, but I likes soccer alot when I was around Primary 4.

51. First vacation:

Never been on a vacation.

52. First pair of trainers:

whatfux?

RIGHT NOW:

53. Eating:

Peanut butter sandwich!

54. Drinking:

Cold water.

55. I'm about to:

Go to sleep.

56. Listening to:

Hot Air Balloon - Owl City. Fantastic song sent to me a few days back by Chu Ming.

57. Waiting on:

Download to finish. LOL

and to find a special someone.

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids?:

don't know. I don't think i'll get married.

59. Get Married?:

don't know.

60. Career?:

anything related to computer engineering, or Business. I'm majoring in business first. I'll continue to pursue computer foundations after i'm bored with business.

Which is Better ? :

61. Lips or eyes:

Eyes! Eyes are beautiful! and, they can speak for itself!

62. Hugs or kisses:

Hugs!! Hugs are just so cute.

63. Shorter or taller:

Taller, by just a bit. All the world will be at peace when I hit 170cm ^_^.

64. Older or Younger:

Younger. Wait, Older. I don't know. Both have their pros and cons.

65. Romantic or spontaneous:

Romantic. This world lacks love. That said, Spontaneous isn't half as bad either. It's just that, Romantic is sweet. Spontaneous isn't.

66. Nice stomach or nice arms

personally, I never looked at physique. Is'nt my thing, and I fail at this too.

67. Sensitive or loud:

I'd like to be sensitive, but i'm loud most of the time.

68. Hook-up or relationship:

Relationship. Hands down!

69. Trouble maker or hesitant:

Hesistant, but I feel like i'm a trouble maker most of the time.

HAVE YOU EVER :

70. Kissed a stranger:

never kissed before. and why would I do this anyway, it just doesn't make sense.

71. Drank hard liquor:

nop.

72. Lost glasses/contacts:

nop. I can see clearly without any visual aids.

73. Sex on first date:

NO! how does this even happen?

74. Broken someone's heart:

Maybe. I really don't know.

75. Been arrested:

never got involved with the police before.

76. Turned someone down:

no one's interested in me in the first place.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. Yourself:

I used not to, but I have learn alot of important lessons from my mistakes and failiures, and now I do. It's been hard.

78. Miracles:

Maybe. It would be nice if it does actually come true and happen.

79. Love at first sight:

Yeah. hahaha

80. Heaven:

no idea, but it would be nice.

81. Santa Claus:

screw this.

82. Angels

Maybe also.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

83. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:

never been attatched.

84. Did you sing today?:

I sing everyday, although I can't sing very well. I do however, like rapping. LOL

85. Ever cheated on somebody?:

Nop. Never been attatched.

86. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:

back to when I was sec2/3. Those days were perfect.

87. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?:

'O' level results day.

88. Are you afraid of falling in love?:

actually, sometimes, yes. But most of the time, no. People should'nt fear to show appreciation.

89. Posting this as 90 truths?:

fuck, what do you think i've been this entire time??

90. Love yourself?:

No, I hate myself. I've committed an uncountable number of unforgivable mistakes, I can't even forgive myself for them.

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