those General Ledger Accounts from POA are driving me crazy. I'm pretty sure my mind will clear up after some time of layin' off the subject for a while. I've got homework for it (Ledger Accounts galore, my dear) but since I intend to only touch the computer every alternate day, I'd rather blog today, when I get to use the computer, and do my homework tommorrow, along with anything else that requires settling.

Hopefully, the whole thing doesn't turn into a procastination of some sort.

This shall be a test for myself, I really don't want to attend classes without finishing up previously given homework (just like what I did most of the time in secondary school)-it just isn't fair to everyone else who have done it before coming into class.

COB has got to be the most enjoyable lesson -and today's lesson represents our second presentation. We're supposed to talk for an entire minute in front of the entire class. It sure sounds simple, but it isn't easy. Simple and easy are both just not the same thing.

Mr. Chin (our COB lecturer) tipped the class off on how to make that one minute easy: talk about something close to your heart. It did make sense; anything that's close to your heart, you can talk about it for hours. Mr. Chin "started the ball rolling" by giving a one minute presentation himself. He talked about his visit to theme parks around the world.

The one minute presentation some of my classmates did talked about various stuff, but all of them had one thing in common: they had depth. The topics they talked about for just one minute had depth in them, and not some lame shallow experience they had in the span of two days, or something. Charmaine talked about how she pursued a diploma, gave up on it, worked for her dad's company, and was awarded with a car. (CURSES! SHE DRIVES TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY) Still, I don't really get how she ended up in ITE, but yeh.

Shafiqah (is that how you spel?) talked about age, and linked it to an incident where when she was overseas, an 80-year old man took the most thrilling seats on a theme park ride. Adding on, she also said the woman sitting beside her was 79.

All these aside, the presentation by Jacintha was perhaps the one with the most heart in it. She talked about how she lost her father a few years back, and why life appears to be unfair to her all the time because of even such as these. She shared how the hospital never managed to detect what her dad as suffering from, until the blood vessels in the body exploded. It was then the hospital discovered he had hypertension, but it was too late. Jacintha couldn't concentrate on her 'O' levels after what had happened, and repeated the 'O' level exams twice. She said she felt sad all around, because she felt as if she let her deceased dad down by not being able to study. It's been three years since, and for what's it worth, I'm not going to care about other people's objective take on this might be. Going through such a though phase at such a young age is really lightingstrike. Moving on, becoming a stronger person at heart after all these, is important. Sure, it took 3 years. So what? It's a move on, and that is what counts.

She was smiling throughout the entire presentation, although it was obvious her voice was becoming fragmented as her voice's pitch kept dropping lower, and the presentation which she started out with a bang, just slowed down, and continued to do so, until she ended her story with a "that's all lor", followed by a warm applause by the entire class.

It's amazing to see people like this. What Jacintha did by sharing what she said with the class was to not only let go of her pride, but to also embrace the loss she had sufferred few years back. On the first day of school, Jacintha was really almost the most bubbly girl in the entire class. I worked with her on my previous presentation, and she really comes across as an almost overjoyed person. She's happy, not because life has given her lemons, but because she made lemonade. It's people like her who go around saying "treasure your loved ones, and the people around you". Thing is, not many people understand this saying, until they've been through it. Which is a tad too late.

which leads me to another thing, because as each day passes, what I've been hearing becomes validated over and over again:

The happiest people on earth are not people who are actually happy, but are people who chose to be happy. People, who make life happy for themselves.

It really just depends on the individual. We have a choice.

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Well, it looks like I certainly have something to say during my one minute of presentation, doesn't it? Why couldn't I see all this a year back in secondary school? What a fool i've been all this time.

I have a choice: and that is, i'm going to bring upon a change. I failed, but i'm not a failiure. I can do this! I've been given a second chance.

still, it's worrying to think if or not I would be able to get a GPA of 3.8 (apparently that's what we need to get into good polys like NP or SP).

K, t00delz.