well, recently our class has been cropped out among the lecturers. And it's for all the wrong reasons. Our class has the worse attendance. Also, we happen to leave behind every classroom that we use a mess. For reasons like these, the lecturers have decided to be a little stricter with the class. It's fair, I guess.

What Mr. Chin pointed out was that, as individuals in the class, every one of us are alright. However, when we're together, in a group, we turn devils. Mr Chin called this phenomenon "group think". Nice way to put it positively, but if it was to be put negatively, it would probably be called "Peer Pressure".

It's true what they say about school/social politics, Peer Pressure really is everywhere. I myself find myself influenced much easier by friends, rather than people i'm blood-related to. If my mum gave me a motivational speech or some sort, it probably wouldn't work as much a friend coming up to me in school and asking me to study harder. That's just my guess.

So, our class, SC, in the light of all these events, have been compared to other ADN classes, such as class SB. Ms Cynthia told me that the number of graduates entering polytechnic from the Nitec to Higher Nitec progression classes is always higher than the number of students from the 'O' level certificate holders' classes. Ms Cynthia told me it's because the progression students have the drive to work hard, and the 'O' level cert holders just lack that drive. I was surprised when she presented to me this, but looking at how SB is like compared to my class right now, it does seem to be true. And, it's worrying.

After Mr. Chin explained "Group Think", he pointed out how the guys at the back of the class would normally just be louder than a bunch of girls sitting in the front row. How, these people in the front row, want to collectively pay attention to the lesson, and how the people at the back of the class collectively want to just are something else.

and so, Mr. Chin went on citing examples. He said some of the people in our class would probably be better off in class SB. With an open gesture, Mr. Chin turned his palm towards me, and said:

"hahahaha Ramesh, you're at the wrong place at the wrong time man!"

what he said genuinely pieced my heart right through, and stayed there. I shouldn't be here, I should've been studying in a polytechnic now, with a sleek campus and a personal notebook. Well, all the more, that is enough drive for me to tell myself, i've got to get outta here, graduate successfully, and be where i'm supposed to be. And that, is just the beginning.

hah. Beginning with the end in mind. I never really understood all those crappy motivational talks in secondary school and earlier, but i've learnt the hard way now. It's true, beginning with the end in mind is important.

Mr. Chow was talking about our class in general during his lesson, too. It was the first time I see Mr. Chow telling people off genuinely in class. He dismissed Daniel's random cut-in questions as "trying to irritate" and some others' as "is that even a serious question?"

It's becoming evident that some of the guys in my class detest Mr. Chow by now. That's sad, because Mr. Chow is cool.

I don't know how long this can carry on for. I mean, everyone has a threshold. Mr. Chow has already somewhat lost his cool with some of the guys, and term1 ends only next week. I don't think this can go on for much longer, before other lecturers begin losing it with our class too.

There have been rumors on how there were plans to put all the students who are willing to work, and those who don't into separate classes. Yup, our SB and SC may have a shuffle of classmates. I cross my fingers that this doesn't happen, because that will just fragment the classes within themselves even further, even more than they already are. Sure, my class SC may suck, but we still are SC, and we are used to each other, even if the different cliques don't talk to each other much. I might cry if this happens.

BSE CA was a killer. I think I just would barely scrape through it, and nothing more. Hell, I didn't even study much for it, because I know how those short answer question would just leave me dumbfounded again, even after if I studied hard. It's not about studying hard, it's about studying smart.

Still, I wish Mr. Chow would teach us how to handle those 15 mark questions. I really don't have a clue. Are we supposed to write 15 points? where are these points? how is it assessed? how will we lose marks? what do we score according to? i've got NO idea wtf.

OFA CA, on the contrary, was almost dirt easy. Mr. Chow's crash course on OFA during his BSE lesson the day before really helped quite a ton, especially in dealing with how the exam paper presented to us to Mail Merge recipient's records (we have to re-arrange the records, lol).

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and here's a crappy weekend. I don't really like weekends or holidays. There's always nothing to do, and no one much to hang out with. Everybody seems to be busy these days.

get this: holidays are next week. Sigh.

SOMEONE ASK ME OUT ON A DATE PLS LOL

I know it's near impossible, but I wish these annoying everyday politics could be done away with, abolished.

Being simple is a virture.